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emptiness

2011-11-12T07:39:00.000-08:00

Feeling so down lately. Because I have got 2 major exams coming up :( Just dont deal very well with such shit.

And I realised I do not actually dislike the BF's bestie. I realised he was so persistent that I hate her and was jealous of her that I was actually starting to believe that was the case. Mummy does that alot too sadly.

And I decided to use this space for what I wear everyday so that I dont have to crack my head what to wear for school every single time! Its giving me a headache :/

two trips due hopefully by dec and january! cant wait! :D

HOLA!

2011-11-08T00:57:00.000-08:00

after almost a year, IM BACK!

and life has never been better! I think the only thing that is shitty is my relationship where the BF has a female best friend and they are so close I bet he rants to her about me. How nice of him to be constantly talking about me to his bestest mates. And FYI there is absolutely no jealousy involved. I mean you definitely have hostile feelings to a person who hated you the moment you got together with your BF? Worse thing is I have to put up with him constantly choosing her over me in every other way... like when we fight and I initiate the break up, he told me that he would never be willing to put down a best friend for me. Thats not what I would ask or allow him to do anyway but it would be a good idea to just throw everything away temporarily if you really want a relationship badly enough? What is worse is he goes overseas with her alone secretly because there is 'no one else'. Bottomline is stoopid me cannot ever stick to a decision I made and end up putting up with this kind of shittiness.

Then again, im in the prime of my life and not going to constantly worry about all these trivial stuff. So... like before, I shopped till the skies dropped to my feet. Can you ever imagine spending close to 3k in a year purely on shopping??!?! I never realised the cumulative figure till I attempted to count the figures in my expense book. That is excluding my trip to Taiwan btw..

But been curbing my shopping habits so far! In the month of October, I spent a total of $531 compared to previous months of constant $800++.

but I can proudly say that I saved enough over the past 20 years of my life to be able to go on 3 luxurious trips next year. Crossing my fingers! And mummy better stop selling off her precious miles!! :(

Sigh, I wished I was still living the relatively 'high' life. Which basically means no studying... Just pure travelling and meeting insane people who would party the hell out. Yupp, been doing preeeetttaaay crazy illegal stuff. Thats not for any of you to know ;)

2011-04-15T09:27:00.000-07:00

IM back! AAfter eons. And prolly disappearing right after this again.

Just think that my life is so awesome now. Not perfect but still sickeningly superb.

Loving it so much that I dont even want to go back to school!

Bought tonnes of clothes 999999999999 and I dont even feel the pinch!

Happiness!

growing up means fucking independence. you just dont get it. ever.

2010-11-28T21:09:00.001-08:00

2010-11-28T08:22:00.000-08:00

so bored, i was blog hopping. even ran out of blogs to hop about.

and while in the midst of that, i found out what purrfecto beauty is (to me at least)

the contours of her lips, the fairness of her skin (make up), and her eyes!

sigh.,

2010-11-28T06:54:00.000-08:00

after 48 hours of post As... im bored to tears!!!!

because my sissies happily used my library card to borrow all their sexy-time content romance books, leaving me with nth to read.

want to paint my nails but i gotta wait for them to grow longer.

ok and im attempting the sats paper now but omg.... the number of sections they have, im burnt out after 8 sections. i hope essay writing comes first during the real paper.

and the dowager at home annoying me to the core! no surprise there.

funny everytime before or after a trip to malaysia. she will make sure to check my bag. for what?? condoms?? *rolls eyes*

seriously contemplating putting the ECONOMICAL SIZE box into my bag one day... yes i love pissing her off. honestly, even if shes old and feeble, she is not going to live with moi. not that im unfillial. she will drive me thoroughly nuts if she were to supervise my sex life at 40. thats the only thing on her head related to me nowadays... hellloooooo, theres more to life than that!!! such as shopping! she should be more worried about that since ive already been set back by 600+ ever since the end of my As, which is merely 2 days ago. and i swear the great things in life are not the 5Cs. more like the 5Ss.

Shopping!!!!!!!!!!!
Sleeping
Snorboarding
Snorkeling
Speeding on the road (dont you just love the adrenaline rush??? well i only experienced that on a bike and when riding other youngsters cars. yupp definitely gonna die young)
Slacking (i swear by it, especially during exam periods)
SNOW!

ok its getting lame. shall camp out at the library tomorrow since i dont have soace on my card to borrow >:C

oh maaaaaaaahhhhh gaaaaaaaawd

2010-11-26T08:21:00.001-08:00

yupp im officially outta school uniform! plus i got a job on hand too! sry ying2 dont think i will be working a mango if they want me to start in dec :/

sooooooooo....... what now?? im just refusing to do anything cept type this blog entry when i got a 1001 things to do. actually not that much stuff but they definitely will take that amount of time to complete :c at least i dont have to buy boots anymore after snatching a few from cousin's place:D awesome people though i see them twice a year at best?

and i wanted to paint my nails. but shall wait for those poopers to reach their maximum growth.

and guardian at 313 has amazing stock of LA GIRL nail lacquers. SCINTILLATING tones plus, theyre real cheap. three times cheaper than blasted opi.

my torture is ending in less than 24 hr

2010-11-24T21:05:00.000-08:00

the moment ive been waiting for eons!

and ive decided not to get a hamster into the house. just lost the enthusiasm. plus, i will be working in a pet shop surrounded by cute lil pups!!! whats better than that?!?!!

but so many things to do before the much awaited trip to hk! in the end, im going with my family since i got no friends to go with :( haha. and much as i enjoy being with family, well, sometimes they just drive me crazy with their stiffiness when on a trip. like how my mom will be going mad protecting us in an unfamiliar environment and my sisters continually embarrassing me with their little antics. yea its cute but cant they be less conspicuous for a second? dont know why but the older i get, the more i want to move out! i admit, there are also many times when i enjoy their company. just that both my sisters are the mainstream goody two shoes while im slowly turning into an alien in my own house!

oh well, its all about expectations. for this trip, i shall rid myself of any opinions at all so that it will be a smooth trip. i pray very hard.

anyway, tomorrow at 1120 am is the official time im getting rid of my school uniform!!! :D shimin congratulated me a bit too early and it seems that i told many that i ended on 25nov...

2010-11-01T23:57:00.000-07:00

secretly laughing at people posting halloween pictures of themselves on fb.

bar maid costumes, sex kitten, policewoman, sexy corporate attire : seriously? i think these belong in the bedroom for only 2 people to enjoy.

the best ones i seen so far are shan and rozz's... of course there are better ones. but ive got limited friends :P

pre-sleep post (all these in my dreams :/)

2010-10-28T09:15:00.000-07:00

i duno which criteria this toilet falls under, but its not royal suite

not this either. i think this is merely deluxe suite
and this is the royal suite toilet, painted in gold...... and the other stuff are made of gold. just duno which stuff

this is a suite higher than deluxe. cause theres some extra shower thingy i guess

living room of royal suite

royal suite bedroom. with rotating bed platform

and the staircase to the second level in royal suite???

these few things are constantly on my head nowadays :(

all those images above are all the 200 or so suites in dubai's most luxurious, or rather the world's most luxurious hotel, period. This hotel ONLY has suites, starting rate at 2000+ per night (lesser if you book through agencies). considered quite cheap for suites. those rates are the 'lower' level of suites in the hotel. but to the layman, the 'worst' is like heaven ! (and all pictures above are definitely just the suites of the hotel. it aint even the lobby or whatnots of the hotel. and in case u were wondering, even the grand looking staircase is part of the ROYAL SUITE. best of the best in the entire hotel. apparently, the entire 25th level is the royal suite.

All the suites feature 2 levels. you can choose to have one or two bedroom, each suite comes with a chauffuer driven rolls royce, bmw and i think benz. full sized HERMES shower products. oh and i forgot this, HELICOPTER TRANSFERS AVAILABLE at a charge of course.

Dubai is definitely going to be my honeymoon destination. and of course, accomodations have to be none other than the 'WORST' suite in BURJ AL ARAB, staying there for at least 7 days ^^. and all these will not be complete without a first class seat on the plane :)

cause its my honeymoon, and i wont even mind paying for half the cost of the honeymoon trip. nevertheless, pity my future husband.

soooo to balance out the costs of my wedding, there shall be no banquet. even if there is, it will be westener style. cheap skate:P

no frivolous food (sea cucumber, abalone, shark fin blah blah blah)
no strangers (means strictly blood relatives from both sides)

and it wont be in a hotel. its gonna be at some HUGE bungalow where i rent it for a month??? or something like that. if i can even find such a place in sg.

well main thing is to leave the money spending to the honeymoon!! :D

10 more years. just 10 FREAKING LONG YRS

smart people

2010-10-19T06:34:00.000-07:00

they surround me 24/7. my best friends. my boyfriends. my ex. my sisters.even my cousin. (not the 1001 cousins from my moms side. the only one in sg from my papa's side)

but im still stuck at the bottom, never rising at allllll.

hmm, maaaaaybe, the people around me absorb all my 'intelligence' till i got no more for myself. like those chinese channel 8 shows where the 'yao guai' is always looking for human victims to suck away all their 'ren qi', or whatever they are called in order to survive or gain more power.

haha just amusing myself. proves how much of my sanity is left. but the stress of trying to keep up with people is definitely there. its not just about achieving the results

T^T.

plus the fact that im missing and craving these stuffs dont help AT ALL.

at least theres a consolation prize at the end no matter my results :D yupp another decoration to be added to my already amazingly beeeeeauuutiful boooohdy...

god. if people only read my blog, i would appear to be a total 'lian'.
and thats As for you.

安

2010-10-04T21:59:00.000-07:00

taken from dawn yang's blog. its so funnily true!

'One woman 女 under one roof 宀 = peace and joy.

(MORE THAN ONE, NO PEACE FOR YOU!)'

lalaa

2010-09-15T22:31:00.000-07:00

haven been back here for awhile... in the midst of prelims and with the amount of stress raining upon me. i just had to get myself inked. it wasnt even planned properly. but i knew what i wanted to get all along so that when times like that come, i wouldnt regret my decision.

and now im planning how to extend from the current tiny one all through the length of my body, or through the length of my legs till mid thigh. this will happen again in another... say... 6 years? or maybe not at all :D this. is for. life. its similar to planning for a baby. like how doing it out of wedlock just screws with the rest of your life. ok very bad analogy. and of course, mama doesnt know. theres no need for more trouble since she was the catalyst in motivating me to actually get one.

so now time to concentrate on my prelims. tata till 2 months ltr unless im all stressed out again :P

richard

2010-08-01T08:47:00.000-07:00

omg. been thinking about the question my group's gonna present on wed. and i havent come up with even one point. how screwed am i? please dont kill me ying square :'(

kim kardashian hair!

2010-07-29T00:48:00.001-07:00

just in love with her curls!

and im currently just going crazy for the next 2-3 months. all study and play = no sleep. :s i just cant give up play! sleep is such a waste of time. and off again to my never ending workload

'f u' nails

2010-07-09T02:09:00.000-07:00

i love lindsay lohan's nails! espacially with the 'f u' stencil... nice going girl.

anti-privacy

2010-07-07T02:46:00.000-07:00

yupp . thats what my mom represents. she reads my texts and logs into my facebook and stalk myself. its annoying to no end. and its been happening for years already. and its always when im attached.

seriously i feel like asking her to get her own bf just so she can receive those texts of her own. i cant possibly be deleting selectively all the time. it gets bloody tiring having to scroll through your inbox searching for a particular name when your hp is not exactly known for being user-friendly.

that aside, i realised that i actually really enjoy doing maths cause its just so simple, straight forward, and repetitive that nothing surprises or scares you after that. cant say the same thing for literature though i still prefer lit to a greater extent.

and my nails are finally free of those coloured chemicals after one month. shall let them breathe for about a week before i have them painted again :D

and speaking of painted nails, you know how schools actually BAN you from exams if you dont adhere to the required attire. apparently, this is not the case for my lit exam. last week, i saw a girl taking the exam with gorgeous nails like these

#$#%$#^$%%#^$

2010-07-04T00:35:00.000-07:00

life's so purrfat now, that i dont even crave shopping.

but sooner or later, life will give you lemons. which was what happened today.

on my way home after tuition, I GOT FLASHED! and it was the most horrific stuff ive ever seen!

i was walking along the path towards serangoon interchange and then suddenly this old man just froze right in my path. and we are talking REALLY OLD here :'( and his $%$#@$#@ was hanging out from his fly!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i just walked away real quickly. worse thing was there were so many people there and it just had to be meeeeee!!! i wanted to curse, scream and most of alll CRY! i had a hard time trying to fight tears back... i know its stupid. but i cant help it!

stuff like that happens to my mom NOT ME! and every time i say to her that i was gonna make the culprit impotent if it were to happen to me. and when it does, I LAMELY WALKED AWAY!

now im thinking that i should have called the police and stalked the guy at the same time. at least there would be 100% assurance that he would be caught! now all i wna say is

OMFG

nekkid

2010-07-02T23:34:00.000-07:00

this is from perezhilton.com . they pledge not to exploit animals. but with all the naked photos of celebrities... arent they exploiting humans instead?!?!

beeeeeuatifool bags

2010-07-01T07:24:00.001-07:00

didnt realise that marc jacobs bags are actually quite affordable. you could get one decent one at SGD 200 and below without dicounts. of course dont expect those exotic leather material ones, more of the canvas collection. and i think the canvases are so much nicer than those expensive leather ones. they play with more colours with the canvas one and as for the leather ones, the patterns are repetitive throughout the fashion world in many other labels. and they still call themselves unique. its as if all the brands use the same few designers.

and im just loving this lil thing! i mean im carrying huge bags all the time since i prefer throwing all my stuff in than carefully placing them in an organised way in the teeny weeny lil thing. i think even my wallet alone is larger than the bag itself.

TEMPERLEY LONDON

and why am i blogging so much about all these stuffs???! well so that if i need anything next time, i can come back and refer to my blog! =D

literature tomorrow :s

OOOVER PRICED

2010-06-29T22:37:00.000-07:00

whenever people say hermes, you will hear the inevitable gasp of shock.

apparently its one of the most luxurious bags to own in the world. pffft. other than the price that is really stunning, i didnt see any wonderfully fascinating designs on its site. AT ALL.

what you are paying for is possibly the PLATINUM PLATE ON THE BAG along with its brand name.

i was actually thinking of persuading my mom to get one of them since only she can afford them in the household. plus shes been craving to buy a branded bag recently. i think its due to peer influence. cause her good friend auntie cynthia got a few. haha yupp peer influence even at that age. so cant blame the younger ones for that particular weaknesss riiiiiiight.

but i hope by the time i reach 20, mom will get sick of her current bag. like it alot and will save me a bit of cash there :P should start going bag shopping with her.

and i just realised that i didnt actually get a huge discount on the maxi i just bought. in a sense, i just didnt have to pay the delivery charge of the dress from uk.

the greatest annoyance in my life

2010-06-27T01:40:00.000-07:00

this has been happening too many times (every single night) and its affecting my mood for studying >:/

my mom is sooooooooo bloooody fond of heart to heart talks that she comes into my room every night and just starts ranting no matter what im up to. if im on the computer, it aint tht bad. and the worse thing is, its the same repetitive stuff! im going crazy!!!im not kidding. the last few minutes i was having my ice cream and talking to her. so i got pretty irritated after a while that i told her to just stay out of my room in a nicest way possible. and she was still annoying me even though all the frustration was obviously showing on my face! i obviously wasnt cool headed nor thinking straight anymore. and the next thing i knew, instead of placing the spoon back into the ice cream bowl, i placed it the notes i was studying. and it took me a loooooooong while to realise what the hell i had done. and yes there are chocolate stains on it now.

dont feel so good hiding stuff from her now. but i rather hide than get all those talks :s i know shes trying to connect or something. hell i think nobody's as close as we are.

i think its time, for her to get a boyfriend.

is hell exothermic or endothermic?

2010-06-25T02:27:00.001-07:00

i got this from google search results. finding it utterly cute and somewhat amusing.

Dr. Schambaugh, of the University of Oklahoma School of Chemical Engineering, Final Exam question for May of 1997. Dr. Schambaugh is known for asking questions such as, "why do airplanes fly?" on his final exams. His one and only final exam question in May 1997 for his Momentum, Heat and Mass Transfer II class was: "Is hell exothermic or endothermic? Support your answer with proof."

Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law or some variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

"First, We postulate that if souls exist, then they must have some mass. If they do, then a mole of souls can also have a mass. So, at what rate are souls moving into hell and at what rate are souls leaving? I think we can safely assume that once a soul gets to hell, it will not leave.

Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for souls entering hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Some of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, then you will go to hell. Since there are more than one of these religions and people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all people and souls go to hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in hell to increase exponentially.

Now, we look at the rate of change in volume in hell. Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in hell to stay the same, the ratio of the mass of souls and volume needs to stay constant. Two options exist:

If hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter hell, then the temperature and pressure in hell will increase until all hell breaks loose.
If hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until hell freezes over.

So which is it? If we accept the quote given to me by Theresa Manyan during Freshman year, "that it will be a cold night in hell before I sleep with you" and take into account the fact that I still have NOT succeeded in having sexual relations with her, then Option 2 cannot be true...Thus, hell is exothermic."

The student, Tim Graham, got the only A.

MAXI DRESS! < 3

2010-06-24T05:04:00.000-07:00

bought a new dress! from river island! uber happy cause it was a bargain. even though the dress was still on a steep side, its totally worth it cause i scrutinised the material, workmanship blablabla. plus it WAS a maxi which was originally SGD 115. and i got it at 59. my family just dont get the beauty of the dress. pfft. i hate talking to fashion noobs. especially when i want to share my happiness of making an INCREDIBLE purchase. oh well. only denise and joey will ever get it. and thats why they are my sworn sisters cause no matter how pissed off we get at each other, we make up.

ok gonna clear up my room and get some more work done. theyre never ending.

army drains away life

2010-06-23T07:29:00.000-07:00

dont you just love my new blog =D

best thing was i didnt have to lift a single finger. cause sissy did it for me. it was her old blog layout. cant believe how good she is with all these stuff. the htmls just make me see stars.

and life's been good. although the exam part should just burn itself up, otherwise it would be PURRFECT. im just hoping my life dont come crashing down just yet. it can crash once im done with studying TEMPORARILY ...

been hearing sooooooo many army stories recently. each one just gets more depressing. the army should hold a 'whose life sucks more' contest. these people really need an outlet ya know. so why not make it into a game :P

seriously, this guy in my ex-class was so bored, that he actually started a conversation with me online. you know there are some people in your list whom you add just for the sake of adding and you NEVER EVER speak to them, in reality or the virtual world. usually. it stays that way. but i guess army makes people appreciate every living thing you ever knew in your life?? :P

i dont know which is worse. rotting away on your days off and then dying of boredom while on duty (supposedly the easy life), or having to wear some f up uniform in the forest for days with every single part of your body covered in grime, eating your pathetic food rations alone in the dark at night with comrades 5-7m away but being forbiddened to speak to them.

ok i will never understand the pain. but imagine thousands of soldiers around the world doing the latter and even getting killed. at least the ns guys (lucky ones) come out alive and well after almost two years and they can go on with life.

oh well, im a girl and i will never put myself through this so who am i to speak. i feel guilty though cause im usually entertained by all these sob stories since i got no brothers or a father who actually went to army to share their experiences. teehee

2010-06-12T20:09:00.000-07:00

was out the whoooooooooole day yesterday. even though i didnt manage to get anything. going outside was a HUGE change after sitting on your ass at home for 3454365445 days of a week.

and i got umpteen missed calls from my sissies at home. whyyy?? they wanted to ask me whether they could open the packet of chips we recently bought =.= of course they didnt bother in the end and went ahead being the pigs they were:P

yupp we bought 3 packs of these. wiped them out in 1 day? need to get 10 packs of these. and best of all. they are baked! only 1.53 from ntuc haha. go grab yours!

2010-06-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

stupid shirlene! she just got me hooked on some make up tutorial site and i totally neglected my homework!!! ahhhhh!!!!!

and we just had an awesome family dinner at suki. and all of us had fishy smelling sashimi hair when we got home. and even after two thorough washes, THE SMELL IS HERE TO STAY. bloody hell. i love sashimi but not in my hair. so i guess i gotta wash it all over again tomorrow morning. wtf

and i got my nails painted gold cos i just wanted to paint them sth awkward. i was going for nice awkward and what came out was fugly awkward.

ok im gonna get back to books. been neglecting them for the past few days :s

and my heart's pumping real fast cause im gonna buy make up! i know, utter waste of money cause all make up just melts in singapore's heat.

2010-06-09T22:55:00.000-07:00

was reading the papers today, and i saw the section promoting the it fair. and it brought back the anger, of my utterly destroyed one and only camera, which was bought with my hard earned money. and of course im once again pissed with denise cause i was reminded of the fact that she doesnt give a damn about other people's stuff and only takes care of her own stuff. ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe its not the case but it sure appears that way.

ok all better now. back to studies :/// even more depressing than having my property smashed right under my nose

2010-06-09T08:37:00.000-07:00

omg their bodies just rock!

if im not wrong, they were the dancers in one of hilary duff's music video STRANGER.

and duff's body was waaaaaaaaay more amazing since she had such a beautiful face to match. too bad i cant find any photos of her.

2010-06-04T01:10:00.000-07:00

i need my ice cream. been thinking of it the whole damn day that i cant get any work done. food cravings are the worst man.

quick someone get me venezia tartufo and hazelnut ice cream!!! i dont think i can last till tomorrow :'(

and miley cyrus should learn to walk properly in heels. she shames all women with her disgusting voice alone. dont do anymore!

2010-05-31T02:03:00.000-07:00

set back by 100 bucks cuase i went on a bollywood spree!

11 movies in total. OH BLIMEY! A JELLY GOOD DEAL! :D

and i got the sudden urge to buy a maxi dress.srigh, maybe two :D. but its not gonna be from those lousy shops at bugis or lil india no more. shall start with millenia walk shopping centre :D hopefully there will be one below 150 :s

actually NEWLOOK maxis are worth raving about. but the glamourous, stunningly beuatiful pieces are miles away. only the lousy reject pieces are in singapore stores right now. pfft

and theres absolutely no typo in this post. if you watch the sitcom MIND YOUR LANGUAGE, you would totally get the 'typos' :D

2010-05-27T06:47:00.000-07:00

day dream....

over rated celebrities

2010-05-27T00:10:00.001-07:00

zac efron is another brad pitt and george clooney.

they are all too highly rated in the HAWTNESS department. puh lease. gimme more jamie bower anytime :D

2010-05-24T22:28:00.000-07:00

some rather queer and nice dresses @store.ustrendy.com

2010-05-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

MATHS SYLLABUS WONT BE FINISHED BEFORE THE HOLSSSSS #$%^&^%*&$@^$#^#@^#^$%#%

freaking out. cant they just throw us the notes and tutorials and then do a webcast?!?!!?!

2010-05-23T21:33:00.000-07:00

people think im REALLY dumb.

well, fyi, i know the guy was surely hanging around some other girl more frequently than he should when i was with him.of course there would be a change in feelings since the girl is also of 'chem engine' calibre. seriously, what with all the 'grandma visits' everytime he visited here, and many other things which i wont care to list, sent me a very clear msg. was just waiting for the inevitable to happen. and that, my folks is end of the story. none of these matter anymore. its over and im moving on so i dont see why the rest of the people, who are not even involved in this are so affected! get a life people!

and what he dont know (which you probably would know once reading this) is that i got friends of friends who are friends with her. thank the gods to these strangers gossips which eventually came to my ears. seriously, this just emphasises on the fact that SINGAPORE IS WAY TO SMALL!

but im still riled by this small thing that does not have anytihng to do with my prev relationship at all. i realised that singaporean families, are still irritatingly traditional. as long as you dont say you are aiming to be a doctor or lawyer, they look at you.............in a different way. i was actually stupid enough to stay in a relationship with a guy whose family had everything to do with the medical world and other high posts in singapore. so naive in thinking that all these dont matter. well, at least those drama serials dont lie when they show all those hurtful discrimination going on in every part of the world.

and chem engine aint

crème de la crème.

its just another profession amongst many other professions in the world. im just still so miffed that father and son actually think they are the god damn smartest people in the world. so what if youre from raffles? and so what if you mix with top scorers from all around singapore in university? there are still many other people who lead more fruitful and successful lives if you put everything together. having billions in the bank and getting into the dean's list dont mean you are living the life, and that everyone else's life should be scorned to the depths of hades.

such an angsty post. these are feelings/opinions harboured since a long time ago from the bottom of my gut. when i heard comments from his father through his son's mouth, saying what course i should choose for my life in university (even if they were meant to be helpful ), i just boiled. my blood reached a maximum point and i could feel a volcano of extremities threatening to spew from my mouth to whomever was present.

and it wasnt only this instance. another friend also had such an unfortunate incident. nevertheless i was sprouting whatever nonsense i could think of as usual.

this post is gonna bring me such awful karma. its been really tiresome to be nice. for these three years i have transformed from bitch to angel. i think i need to start having a balance. but first and formost, i gotta summon courage to and express what i really feel.

ok and to be fair, said guy is still giving me tuition for free, offering to help me out through this exam period, which i would confess i really need. im still in a dilemma about this. hate free lunches. and of course thank his father for always fetching me home and buying me dinner.

ok i dont feel like i owe anyone any apologies now.

2010-05-22T23:33:00.000-07:00

Mango Bubble Tea Recipe

Ingredients

1 ripe mango, chopped
1 cup low-fat milk
½ cup water
½ cup tapioca pearls
2 tablespoon sugar
1 tea bag - red, black, green or orange pekoe
Honey, for taste

yes my monthly thing and of all things nice under the sun to crave for, im simply craving for bubble tea from petaling jaya. and fyi, im craving for a drink situated 5-7 hours away from singapore. aint it brilliant?!?!?

and whats the recipe for? wellwell, with my nothing less than professional cooking skills, im going to conjure my very own replica of the pj milk tea, and i wont stop till i attain purrfection.

wish me luck

2010-05-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

liberation! definitely happy that:

1. i didnt have to open my mouth first:P
2. it was mutual
3. we are still good friends!
4. and all things good!

not that the past two years werent eventful:D but according to kim k. ,

im on the market now... and the next time i actually date again, HE would be my husband :P

happpppy. but bummer i got a feeling hes gonna stricter than ever once we start tuition :S nvm anyone would be better than the tuition teacher from _jc!

2010-05-20T08:27:00.000-07:00

i want back my big fab thinner bod. not this big fat blob.

and my strict regime starts tomorrow. my mom says you can only do it in three months.

well. the sheenana way is to do it in a month.

JUST DO IT!

splendid stuff. i need the president's paycheck to buy all these

2010-05-17T07:16:00.000-07:00

http://www.armorjewelry.com/shop/

well im gonna try to replicate those jewelry. including those armor jewelry. but thats gonna be after As cause it looks like a tonne of work.but hopefully i got some time on my hands this hol to do the tiny ones. as for the clothes. sigh...

my 'wants' in life

2010-05-13T23:49:00.000-07:00

gorgeous like her

live in an italian home

my dream kitchen

my one and only ride

my lifelong companions

some household staff:D

and MAYBE a few adopted kids

2010-05-13T07:19:00.000-07:00

yawns... was burning up the whole day today. mama didnt even care this time :'( nah she was just at work

one whole day sleeping and eating :P

i hate school. i wna lead an anti-social life.

2010-05-10T22:39:00.000-07:00

GINNY WEASLEY is seriously engaged!!

rock music is...

2010-05-02T08:25:00.001-07:00

high velocity folk song!

so anyway, COCNERTS IN MSIA ARE BULLSHIT! yea and the dj sucks too. they like freaking took a dig at sg. seriously being a semi public figure, he should just watch his words.

and stupid ^%^#$%#$ in the audience were such assholes. like bloody nasty people. i tihnk as i travel round the world i hate more and more people of a certain type.

oh and msian should get out more. i was showing chest not boobs, not even cleavage, and their eyes were popping out. such bumpkins. of course im talking about the deprived men there. and guess what, i got scolded for that.

ok rock concerts are just nasty stuff. the next time im gonna hire the services of a super tall and built body builder so that he can hoist me up in the middle of those mobs and i dont have to sweat pig loads in the heat of the crowd of fans.

this is such a mild commentary compared to what i dished out to the bf ears

happy ! shalalala!

2010-04-29T11:02:00.000-07:00

ahhh! the long awaited concert and kl trip is finally here! cant sleep!

and i have been doing my nails for hours! still hideous but at least more acceptable now.

AHHH!

HOT SHITZU!!!

2010-04-28T02:33:00.001-07:00

and heresay hes bloody GETTING MARRIED?!?!?! come on!! hes freaking 22! DONT DO THAT!

ugh!! they immediately lose their appeal once they are PERMANENTLY ATTACHED! with babies too...

2010-04-24T19:52:00.000-07:00

ate a pill late last night right before i went to bed

its still lodged stubbornly in my throat:( cant eat comfortably, cant burp comfortably..

and this period seems to be the 'cheating' season. everyone's complaining about their other half who are having 'extra-marital affairs'. the bug didnt get to me ...yet. haha

yay having pizza for lunch and dinner! and 5 more days to kl!

and my mom just told me that she might just go to paris with me too!

bye

2010-04-19T07:09:00.001-07:00

save me from schoooooool :(((

2010-04-18T08:28:00.001-07:00

yes! im finally going to paris!!!! :D:D

now i just gotta go see what other operas are going to play in spring 2012!

2010-04-16T09:03:00.000-07:00

im going vavavoom over those leather purses!

2010-04-14T07:34:00.000-07:00

feeling shagged. like uber dead. omg i feel skipping school again.

yawns. i dont like having to think before i type here. hmm ... and offended people in my previous post. i mean i dont feel horrid cause i really felt that way and im not hiding anything here? saying this is kinda mean in a way. but the feeling is long gone. like it felt like it never happened. my god. crap after crap just keep pouring down on me.

so how large can a bag of dead leaves can we pull behind us?? i wonder how much will actually make up 5kg.

im being incoherent again.

im going crazy

2010-04-13T02:24:00.001-07:00

gna be in a super lousy mood nowadays till i manage to get onto honour roll for myes.

im saying this cause theres a pe test tomorrow and my friend asks me for the notes but i didnt bring them and she says 'BUT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO SHARE YOU KNOW??!!' yea i know that dude but you didnt tell me to bring it either so how the hell am i supposed to know? so fine you dont need me to scan it since you got someone else to do it instead. like what the fuck. right after i offered to scan it over. FINE

ok im just in a crappy mood with my monthly partner here again. I HATE YOU. and im hating people around me a lot now. like why cant the teachers leave me alone. why people have to tell me stuff i dont want to hear and dont really care to hear even if theyre good for me. loads of other stuff i tell you, which make me just tear up for no reason in class. i need a week of self declared 'break' cause it will be used for studies. seriously, people just dont let you do what you want with your life. i wished i were an orphan and forced to work in those laborious places so that MAYBE i would know how t appreciate a life like mine. i wished i grew up in iran as a guy just farming my whole life. ok im losing track.

omg i dont know what im typing and im like tearing while typing this. wtf?? i think its all the little nasty things accumulated which are causing these crazy moments.

ok i just have to get through this crappy year.period. and get my life back into control. a little normalcy here and there should satisfy me. i hope

2010-04-11T22:27:00.000-07:00

i feel like the living dead; i have lived for 18 loong years that theres nothing else to live for but you cant drop dead either. pfft

back to math

good looker cool suits

2010-04-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

just read the papers about times changing and people's perception of the suit. guys can now wear 'fake' suits without getting snobbed. they used to be 1k++ and anything below that, there would be mockery rained upon the poor chap.

NOOOOOOOW... you can just get them from topshop and there would be no issue at all. in fact, they can be paired with anything at all cause the top and bottom neednt be worn with each other, very unlike the older kind of suits where the pinstriped coat will look hell weird with your usual jeans.

BUUUUUUUUUUT... i just dont get why guys are wearing those horrid pj looking 'shirts' with their beach berms. plus it shows the sad fact that majority of sg guys are skinny sods. it just hugs their bods so crazily tight, resembling their second skin.

SOOOOOOOOOOOO.... pleeeeeeease stop the skinny lanky looking trend! yuuuck. guys should remain on the masculine side. plus suits never fail to make even a nerd look cool.

and if ure worried about the rotten weather here. welllll too bad :P

):)

2010-04-06T03:02:00.000-07:00

been real busy lately. plus my greatest achievement of the week? finishing up my literature presentation. and it got the thumbs up. the teacher even commented how she would use our materials for her other classes. ^^ love her to bits. she definitely would come in handy if i need referees:P i might be hard up for one but i will never ever resort to bootlicking. especially to some teachers you abhor. i know i know just suck your pride up, get what you want and then you can do whatever you like to them afterwards. PLUS, according to certain people, i might learn more? riiiiiight.

eeks better get back to my overoveroveroveroveroveroverdue maths tutorials. you cant count the number of tutorials i have not done on a single hand anymore :s

2010-03-31T08:54:00.000-07:00

omg i dont want to go for the friday thing, but why the hell did i still give in?!!!??!?!!? dont even feel any closeness to them. i feel like they are just really nice people in my class whom i met. and i dont care the fuck about birthdays at all! not even mine! get it?!!??!

ok this is what im going to do. im going to say no. no.matter.what. even if i become a bloody outcast.

omg i dont know why im so angry but I JUST AM SOOOOOOO PISSED OFFFFF!

2010-03-29T00:02:00.000-07:00

i realise studying is making me sooo stressful. and i feel i need my friends around me at times like these, whether or not they pissed me off before. but hell all of them are going to different parts of the universe >:<

and im soooooooo bloooody forgiving. seriously. ugh my mom's lectures about all those buddhist stuff has gotten to me so much that i think i might be a saint already if i didnt drink, club, lie and all the nasties.

and i really dont wna go timbre but i will go because of the people. come to love them so far. can i just sit there and not eat? haha kinda losing weight here but argh! they will feel awkward. i really dont mind going there to hang though. ying2! i hope you read this so that i dont have to tell you straight up!

2010-03-28T02:56:00.000-07:00

while lying in bed with my super bad tummy ache(i think its gastric), was thinking about how dialects were actually formed. tara said it was from the mispronounciation of the actual thing till it became a whole new language itself. found it quite funny.

and my neighbour gave us a huge pot of curry after my mum's remark on how delicious it smelt from our apartment. haha! my mom is embarrassed ttm and wrecking her head on what the hell she should give them back. they are the best people on earth!!!! :D i swear indians are such wonderful people!!!! my dad's best friend and brother is an indian! denise's best friends are also indian! singapore should get more immigrants from india instead of _______(you know which country. they are everywhere in hordes speaking loudly in their mother tongue, like they were broadcasting news, which happens to be our mother tongue as well. thinking of them makes my blood boil).

2010-03-24T09:00:00.000-07:00

first thing first. i love the bikes duh.

and its so cool that they are parading their own rights. but the prob is, alot of hot sexy girls are turning.

the whole of singapore should start petitioning for stuff like that. if not we will be stifled forever! seriously, a government cant imprison the whole nation.

or the world should just turn bi. no gender issue. sexless even.

2010-03-19T08:03:00.000-07:00

happy 19th to my best girl!

and i dread the weekends right before school starts. what with all the numerous tests and annoying shituz i have to face once school starts.

seriously starting to dread school.

and mama is always trying to stop me from doing stuffs. DONT GO CLUB, YOU WILL TAKE DRUGS THERE.

there is a thing called CHOICE and STUPIDITY. i dont have the latter and im definitely better at making life-threatening decisions than the average teen.

pfft. i dont have any outlet to turn to now! i cant do drugs, cant smoke, and definitely no sex! where am i to vent my anger?!?! frustrations!?!

of course, the pigeon. even though im not that welcome there :P toodle loooooooooooos

2010-03-14T00:31:00.000-08:00

2010-03-02T00:57:00.000-08:00

i am absolutely hyped about my obssession which is slowly becoming a dream come true.

personally prefer the first one. there are three wheels and there would be no problem with the balancing. especially for my size. but you think singapore would allow dealers to bring in those monsters? pfft

i love my monsters. the second one is a sportster. to me looks like any other normal bike. i wish i were a bigger girl man.

theres another FATBOY. but im way too lazy to upload those.

busy as a beeee

2010-02-23T07:23:00.000-08:00

been absolutely busy this week. but priorities all screwed up.

when lit was due, i did math.

when chem was due, i did gp.

you get it. left out this part in my conversation to rj. didnt want to be nagged at =D he can see this here.

i rather keep my studying life to myself, if i had a choice. but the school has to be so anal to require our parents signature on our results slips. seriously? 18 and 19 year olds having to have their result slips signed by their parents when they are legally allowed, without a guardian or parent, to sign up for a mobile line, enter clubbing premises, drink legally, smoke legally, have sex. we are all adults. but as long as we are in uniforms, people never take us seriously.

satisfied that i finished a rather well written thought provoking piece of work. hopefully the teacher shares the same sentiments.

and im behind in chemistry and maths tutorial. why? because im in need of a new tutor, who is free like hell and available 24/7 cause the bf got his own hectic studying himself now. any recommendations?

and to end on a passive note, march holidays seem light years away.

dread and anticipation

2010-02-11T06:16:00.001-08:00

ying ying gave me 2 bracelets! one for vday and my birthday! yay! love u girl!

so after school today, my mom and i decided to go for a last minute grocery shopping spree. worst grocery shopping ever in my life. my trolley was moving at 1mm per hr. alright, basically its snail's pace!!!! and where there are crowds, rude singaporeans are at their peak. they bang, push, snatch, grab, shove.......

recently, clubbing has been on my mind. so another thing to look forward to during the march holidays. that is, if i make it back ALIVE from my short cny trip.

oh yeah and lene and i saw NYMPHS at amk food court!!! awful stuff! i was scared shitless!

ABHORRENT ROACHES!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-10T01:48:00.001-08:00

polished off about slightly over 100 pineapple tarts in a month.

I LOVE TARTS! TARTY-----TARTY---TUEEEEEEESDAY!!!

pe preachers

2010-02-04T02:09:00.000-08:00

today was a fruitful day. turned out our gp project got full marks.

and brian ng typed 'i so pretty' on my wall. using MY account. using the school computer. apparently, you can post stuff but when it comes to deleting those posts, it detects an error!!!! oh well. its my retribution i guess. did it to the bf umpteen times.

and i found it so funny after that i was laughing to myself on the way back home. double humiliation!

also, Y2 told me something that reinforced the bad image of pe teachers in my head.

theres this really old pe department teacher who, in my opinion is way too bossy.

in the year 2008 there was the phenomenon of the vendor running out of guys' pe shorts. hence, dudes had to appear for their first few pe lessons in other non-nyjc shorts. but this particular teacher insisted that, they have to wear the school pe shorts to attend pe lessons. hence, the whole class had to purchase the largest FEMALE pe short size.

obviously, this wont do. when the guys wore the shorts, it appeared to be transclucent. and i would presume tighter and more uncomfortable than usual.

it is not even the students fault that they are unable to follow school rules of wearing the right pe shorts. such a waste of money.

well this is just some pish i have with the pe department. i mean, not all of them are like that. but the MAJORITY of them are serious cockheads. and dont even get me started on the pregnant cows.

epic fail

2010-02-03T06:57:00.000-08:00

all for the sake of gp, i abandoned all my other subjects. or if I could last, i have to skip sleep tonight and work on the other stuff.

theres some gp presentation tomorrow, which is marked but i dont give a damn for it. whats more, we have to do write up for it as well. pardon me but im just going to say

knbccb

toodle-loo

2nd one down!

2010-02-03T03:58:00.000-08:00

2010-02-02T02:50:00.000-08:00

gp was total annoyance. the teacher went mad. i thought i was going to have a heart attack.

i finally got to eat TWIGGIES after eternity. it was HEAVENLY. cause i didnt eat after lunch and i lasted till 430.

and of course all my awesome beady little precious!

2010-02-01T07:00:00.001-08:00

i want more beads!!!!!!!!

2010-02-01T02:45:00.000-08:00

i want these fab stuff

2010-01-31T08:02:00.001-08:00

just went to xiaxue's blog. her new blackberry was really really bling. it hurt my eyes to look at the phone decorations even on the computer at minimal brightness.

got into accessory making. so far so good. just need to get more materials.

and people always ask what i want for my birthday. but i tell them no cause i got nothing i need. but this time. i know what i really SERIOUSly need!!!!

YES!!!

feel free to get me hundreds of these ! haha! ok no i will hate you. i dont care how much they cost!

i just really really want this!or any other design! as long as its a compartmentalised container divided into more than 15 small spaces with a COVER! ok thats really demanding now.

rah!!!

2010-01-25T08:08:00.000-08:00

omg i was preparing for bed and i suddenly thought of my ex tuition teacher

failed to find her on fb and......

I FOUND ALL THESE INSTEAD!!!

awesome shit!!! there are more but i need sleep!

and all these are from

the-red-jewel-bracelets.blogspot.com

2010-01-25T00:21:00.000-08:00

im eating super duper dried up orange. :S like theres no taste, no juice, only pure orange puree.

and the love birds and clique are super annoying! as usual, talked so much during econs again.
whats more, now, they have their own special seats?!?!!? when its free seating?

wow, how did pri sch kids end up in jc man.

i dont know why, but they recently just keep getting on my nerves.

the solution? avoid these people!

and i DONT WANT TO GO TO MSIA!!!! seriously, im going to die there. i lost 500 dollars, something worse is going to happen! i just know it!

ugh, since my mama is so adamant about us having to go, my last resort is to bring bygone(for its hardiness and inflammability) and a lighter. will use it as a flame thrower should anyone even touch a single strand of hair on my body!

this is the only time i wish i could drive. i would totally KNOCK THOSE FREAKING SLASHING IDIOTS DOWN!

hate going there. pfft.

2010-01-20T21:55:00.000-08:00

was so bored of studying today.

soooo... i went to facebook to stalk people! :P

and i found loads of pri sch mates. regardless of whether they still remeber me, i just went on a 'adding friend' spree:P haha!

some of them had morphed into something so shocking over the years!!!!

except the girls somehow :P

2010-01-18T04:58:00.000-08:00

officially hate humans now. disgusting creatures of all times. no wonder they are even trying to wipe out each other through so called 'terrorism'.

2010-01-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

my next special event dress!!!!! :D:D

2010-01-14T06:07:00.000-08:00

i reaallly reaallly want confectionary cakes NOW!!! the only sweet foods at home are freaking DRIED FRUIT! ugh i need real sugar!

like TWIGGIES!!!!!!

first week of sch was indescribable

and i never realised how 'little' engrish lessons we had till i passed the second last day of the week!

but after starting school, reality sunk in. i might never study in uk my entire life.

2010-01-10T02:20:00.001-08:00

from this day on , im gonna go shopping with my mom.

shes got taste and i got enough clubbing clothes anyway

2010-01-03T06:47:00.000-08:00

im gna be a goody two shoes

no more shopping

no more l4ds

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

no more clubbing

aaaaaaaannnnnngggggrrrrrrrryyyyyy

2010-01-01T08:55:00.000-08:00

theres one more week left of hols and i havent even met jojo once! so gna meet her on wed. and im hers the whole night! :D

so of course the hols has been fun. when not much work is done. wow that rhymes.

and so of course, all the fun must come to an end when one of my ever bestest friend shouts at me

FUCK YOU SHIREENA

like wow! i never got that my whole life and it aint gonna start now.

super mad. fuming. even now. but still, i have to think like a civilised little angel. because

1)she lets me sleeps over at her house after clubbing
2)paid for cab fare and dinner when i was broke after bintan
3)was thinking whether i should just destroy our friendship over that expression

well. THIS IS A CONTROVERSY! HELP! but i know im still too angered at her to hang out with her.

may seem trivial to her. but nobody ever ever ever says that nasty little thing to me. plus if i dont do anything her way once, its like the next time we meet, i will be made to feel guilty. even when she says i havent pissed her off, it feels like i already did... cos i didnt want to go out and collect a jacket with her from her cousin.i always think twice about arguing with her. apparently,she doesnt. not cool. i just feel so bad for myself that i just lack the ability to SCREAM AT SOMEONE!

oh and the funniest thing she said to me, after a friend told her that i was pissed with her was 'i was pissed/angry with you cause you punched me' .

OMG. ok fine i punched her shoulder cos she was all motherly to me cos I WAS HIGH and also cos i was fuming insanely mad at her. the highness was definitely over but you know what? apparently 'drunk' people's words cannot be listened to. i could walk perfectly fine maaan. high and drunk are totally different matters. i didnt puke and never will. and being high doesnt make you puke.

and today, i didnt want to club. apparently her cousin invited her and her own friends are going too? i think. so after i replied that i will pass tonight, her bizarre reply was 'my frens think that you dont like them' . and those frens included those i NEVER met before?!?!?!?!?! now i really wonder if its some sort of tactic? i really dont want to know.but if its true, well then im disliking annonymous people

and one more thing that shocked me. we were shopping, and i saw amanda one of my pri sch mates, her enemy. so when she said 'i saw amanda ' i wanted to turn around and maybe if i see her i would say hi. but she was all 'omg, so you WILL SAY HI TO HER?!?!?!'

turns out im not supposed to cause its HER enemy. get it? well i definitely dont understand the logic there. but didnt want to argue as usual.

IM TOO NICE!!!well according to me. at least to people close to me. i really wished there were two of me. then the other one can do her bidding and be with her 24/7 on autopilot mode. so that the other me can study and make time for other friends.seriously, the whole darn post is not even angsty even to get my point across!

there are so much more things but trying not to rat on my friend. this post is all i can do to vent my frustrations! that everything i do, IS NEVER ENOUGH!

if you read this. well i guess its up to you and i guess im just doomed:))

so to all FRESH A GRADS AND IB! ALL THE BEST FOR FUTURE ENDEAVOURS!!!!!! <3

2009-12-08T06:53:00.000-08:00

back from bintan and all. i say it was worth the 500 dollars

but definitely not worth 1k

i swear i dont know what to do.

so it was basically just eating playing and sleeping. and there were so many sgreans this time i swear never to go there again. plus the beach didnt look as clean as the first time. man i gotta save up for aussie. or bali?

and as expected got freaking sun burnt. so hurting with every move of my shoulders. hopefully they wont start peeling man.

so after i got back, had a huge craving for pontian noodles. and spent the entire tues watching south park and american pie. its beeeeen a reeeeaaaal pervie day

and realised that i tend t be very close to people who i find a lot of faults with and fight alot with.like wth.. but love them all the same

BINTAN!!!

2009-12-01T16:48:00.000-08:00

its unbelievvablely awesome that i get to get out of singapore with friends!!!! back to my beautiful clean clear water beach! all the scowls and disapproving talk was definitely worth it!

oh and head over to my fb profile and see the cute shock kitty video!!

and the condo kittens now allow me to pet them! i wish this holiday will never end!! =D

2009-11-30T19:19:00.000-08:00

when uncle ashok came he told us lots of stories. and now im really enlightened about my father's death...

he died of fillial piety >:<

2009-11-27T04:34:00.000-08:00

shit. feel so awfully hatefully to this person who just stared me from head to toe treated me like some ignorant kid.. hello?? hell i can be more stylish than you are, but if i go in my usual get t msia.. i would freaking get robbed, chopped up and cooked into curry. or a hooker!! i rather the curry, at least im being made into my favourite food!

and people! THIS IS IMPT!!! MUSTAFA DOES NOT OPEN 24/7 365 DAYS! ITS FREAKING CLOSED ON HARI RAYA HAJI!! how nice to endure a mass of construction worker stares when it was all for nought! thank god i found some cute pj pants and maxi dress which i realised looked quite normal now. so the only good thing was the pj pants..

oh well and msia was, well pleasantly scary. the feeling was like walking among 99999999999999999999999 rapists! and the freaking cab fare was 129.80.. its was discounted=.= from 140. no idea what the hell is up with the taxi driver to quote me that figure.

oh well but the awesome prata saved the day! food always does that. msia should borrow some law enforcement people from singapore so that when people like me go in. we are protected!! then here i come good food!

<3 the dress

2009-11-22T17:54:00.000-08:00

2009-11-12T07:21:00.000-08:00

wee!!! my new hair!! sorry if the face is screwed up:P

2009-11-08T04:14:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i wish the riches in the world were at my command so that i can act like a total bitch. some people just give you that kind of screwed up motivation..

but daphane definitely has some queer ambitions...

me: i wna be rich to do whatever i wish to do

D: yeaaaaaa~~~ like have all the sex in the world and have the money to do umpteens of abortions!!!

OMO! never realised how crazy she was...

and despite my mom being the 'cool dudette' mom that every of my friend wished their mom's were... i swear having a mom with teenagerish attitudes sometimes comes with the annoying little moments as well. all comes in a package you know? sometimes i wished she could be severe and all at the right moments...

speaking of which, my earnings from working as a waitress were already depleted even before i got the job. like 100+ in deficits.. only one person is capable of that.

which reminds me, gotta go chase them for my pathetic paycheck

2009-10-26T19:44:00.000-07:00

ok just decided that ytd was my worst shopping spree ever. because there were 5 others in tow and i hate letting ppl wait. vice versa. and i dont like topshop. like if i can i will never step foot in there but 10/10 of my frens are a fan of that cult store.

no wonder im such a loner when it comes to shopping. but at least i get things done right and not rush through my shopping which is like a sacred ritual!!! ugh. didnt buy thigns that i wanted to buy in the end. so irritated. and hate shopping with guys too .except mayb rj. i dont care bout their so called helpful comments cause they totally dont think in the same scope!!

OMO!!!!

2009-10-26T06:26:00.000-07:00

im so screwed. worked a totaly value of 50 dollars and i spent 49 today. so i earned one dollar =.=

oh well quitting anyway. cant change my mindset of serving people even though i keep telling my family otherwise.

2009-10-17T21:50:00.000-07:00

oh my god. kimchi failed cause of unwanted interference. and worse thing is the culprit and the bf are just ... all i can say is they definitely dont make things better at times based on their level of 'smartness'. just feeling utterly annoyed. ugh.

2009-10-13T19:11:00.000-07:00

loads of my friends have got their driving license. i think the whole world is getting their license. cept me ...

why?? because then my mom will make me run errands!! :S and imagine the car pooling during chinese new year :S yeah im selfish in a way but i just dont fancy doing those things. and with the erp and stuff, whenever i use the car, she might just make me use my ezlink to pay for those stuff...

so all in all i shouldnt go learn driving because i simply cant afford it.

just being a sour grape :P

ohhhhhh my . a second hand land rover (DREAM CAR next to lambo) is only 52 k!!!! ok plus a change of engine and coating would add up to 60k. still 1k cheaper than my moms commoner car!!!

theres also a VW beetle! which is 36k!

im delusional right now

<3 kimchi

2009-10-13T06:05:00.001-07:00

whoaaaaaa

nicely enjoying post promos

so decided to spend my time learning the ropes from my mom in cooking. of course, with a teeny weeny bit of help from her, i have learnt to make KIMCHI SOUP with my own KIMCHI!

yupp super duper uber proud of that

and learnt how to cook mix veg dish. my favourite:D oh but i can only use the AMC to cook, because i prefer using the induction cooker to the scary stove :S and the iron wrought wok is just too heavy for me too handle. TEEHEE

and my new rave is............MILK FLAVORED HELLO PANDA!!! polished off 3 packets today. 2 yesterday. OMG

and the most torturous matter now is i got all the time to shop till i drop but........ i have totally no interest in anything.

except those gypsy clothing

and i finally can change my layout!

tata!!

2009-10-12T09:23:00.000-07:00

2009-10-11T04:54:00.000-07:00

going to get replicas of these outfits after tomorrow!!! whooo~~~

2009-09-30T07:56:00.000-07:00

i dont fancy people judging whether i should be in a relationship or whether my relationship is a bozer... been getting it in school and now is the ultimate because... that person told me '$#%@ YOU!'

guys can use it on each other. but once its directed at me, well then #$%$ you back. yuuupp thats my style.

and that was the last straw after tonnes of

'you never experienced it'

'you dont know anything'

'youre stupid!!! idiot!!!'

'YOUR RELATIONSHIP CANT EVEN BE CONSIDERED A RELATIONSHIP!!!!!!'

now how would she know that??? 0_0 im having a threesome in which shes involved????

okkkkkk... thats just abuse!!!! and the funniest thing is, she was talking about her own problems.

and whose this damned person........

non other than bloody TRIX.

yupp. and i realised people say this to me in school too. hmmm. oh well, shall not pile the 'niceties' up too much if not they will overwhelm me. its a little like my crappy attendance in school, which i am honestly not very affected by but my poor class president is fretting over it mightily. i think shes going into fits soon. and these are supposedly my problems which... in a mysterious way..... became theirs?????teehee!!!

and do i freaking look like aunt agony??? cos everyone comes to me with their problems, specifically girl problems. and shitty hell i feel uncomfortable whenever something like that happens. i mean... HOW THE HELL DO YOU RESPOND?!?!?! especially when your views and the other party views are PURRRFECTLY CONTRASTING!!!! now im in agony!!!

on an absolutely random note

never knew mooncakes were such delights!!! they can totally make my day. only the traditional lotus paste and the ornee one though not too much of the latter. just one with cashews and raisins inside BUT theres still lotus paste nevertheless =D and green tea totally SUCKS!!!

haaaiiii, im done here, back to exam preparation :( missed so many movies because of that. on the bright side, im back to the nightlife only two weeks later!!!

and to those 'agonying people':

BLESS YOU

happy promoing =D and A lvling =D

(no prizes for guessing what the hell is up up up up there)

2009-09-26T10:48:00.000-07:00

some ppl are just too quirky, unique, fresh, versatile for their own good. but guess what, they are usually valued for their thoughts on fashion.

2009-09-26T00:44:00.000-07:00

on a brighter note, ive found some wacky ideaS!!!

Wear XXLarge clothing, and use padding to make yourself extra "hefty." Glue or sew a small stuffed dog into the "butt crack" area. Carry a "Lost Dog" sign.
~ im seriously considering it

Little Dead Riding Hood
Wear the usual Little Red Riding Hood Costume and then use fake scars, wounds and blood to make it look like the Big Bad Wolf got you. Don't forget your basket!!

2009-09-26T00:40:00.000-07:00

hmph. im fretting over the halloween thingy ( which is uttely stupid) because i cant make up my mind on what to be, and even if i have, i dont have a partner to dress in the same thing as me!!! like same category and stuff!!! BECAUSE rj has no fancy for these things. maybe if i tell him to dress a imac?? hmmmmmm 0.0000000000000000000000000000000000000001% chance

alright back to promo preparation =.=

2009-09-22T02:37:00.000-07:00

theyre so killing me

exams are in 2 weeks!! or less!

actually i kinda cant wait cos it will mean its nearer to the end and i can finally see the results of my hardwork!!!

no seriously, because i never EVER studied so hard my entire life!!!

ok shall go do maths mocks now

oh and i dont care what people say...

I LOVE BINTAN!!!

and these are the few pictures of the babies i have been feeding till they have grown so big and other what nots like the ornee my mama made :D and theres the bread which looks like those fake ones from mini toons, but its edible. from nus NANYANG SUPER MART. oh pictures are up there